The countdown

I have relapsed. It’s a frustrating but natural part of recovery. I started a countdown until the day I stop. Until then, I’m preparing mentally to quit and planning what to do in the first days. This is a test to my will power. I must be stronger than this. I feel ashamed and that’s why I haven’t been posting. I’m not struggling, I’m numb, again.

I have been focusing on drawing and innovating in that field. I have been using new techniques and styles. It’s so rewarding to see the finished product. I’m doing a portfolio and documenting my art, for future reference.
I feel good and calm, I feel like drawing all night. I have this urge to express myself, to be productive. It’s wonderful to produce some thing.

Maybe I’ll post again, later. I hope so.

Thank you for reading this.

Image by Wild0ne, courtesy of Pixabay.

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2 thoughts on “The countdown

  1. Paulo

    tere’s always a second chance… and a third… and countless times until we finally achieve our goals…

    the important thing is to never give up

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