I have relapsed. It’s a frustrating but natural part of recovery. I started a countdown until the day I stop. Until then, I’m preparing mentally to quit and planning what to do in the first days. This is a test to my will power. I must be stronger than this. I feel ashamed and that’s why I haven’t been posting. I’m not struggling, I’m numb, again.
I have been focusing on drawing and innovating in that field. I have been using new techniques and styles. It’s so rewarding to see the finished product. I’m doing a portfolio and documenting my art, for future reference.
I feel good and calm, I feel like drawing all night. I have this urge to express myself, to be productive. It’s wonderful to produce some thing.
Maybe I’ll post again, later. I hope so.
Thank you for reading this.