I don’t like to write when I’m upset but I need to. My writing becomes dark and sad.
I feel all emotions at once. I’m overwhelmed by uncomfortable feelings. Despair, sadness, hopelessness, frustration wash over me.
Feelings are like waves, they come and go. I allow myself to feel and accept them. They will be gone soon.
I want to write beautiful things and inspire people but I can’t inspire anyone when I’m feeling down and uninspired. I can see that’s not the point, either. Maybe what I write can make people, who are also down, feel less lonely and less misunderstood.
Venting helps and writing it down is a great way to feel better. At least I expressed my feelings of discomfort. At least I made an effort to write, despite all the negative feelings.
When I’m down and I write, there’s a voice in my head telling me that I’m a terrible writer and that no one will want to read what I write. I feel no pleasure writing but I feel relieved, so I do it.
I recommend writing as a form of therapy, especially when you’re down. Writing helps you to rationalize your feelings and think more clearly.
My motto used to be “to write until it stops to hurt” (escrever até parar de doer). I will write until it stops hurting and beyond that.