Yesterday, a friend of mine rejected me. He said he grew tired of me.
I cried a lot and had a meltdown. I switch to irrational mode when people abandon me. I felt an intense psychological pain. What helped was talking about it with my friends. They were very understanding and provided great points of view.
I felt relieved and more stable. I’m learning to accept that some people will leave my life and that’s fine. I leave people’s lives, too. For self-preservation. It’s just that disappointments always hits me like a rock.
What hurts me the most is when people are cold to me. My friend was extremely cold to me, talked about our friendship like it was a business, no feelings involved. It hurts but, this way is easier to overcome, as I come to the conclusion that I never really knew him.
Yesterday, when we started to argue I had a feeling that a falling out would occur. But I didn’t stop. I didn’t avoid abandonment. I faced it and I’m proud of that.
Life goes on, you lose people and meet people. You grow cold and distant to some people but also warmer and closer to other people.
It was important for me to meet him, he taught me a lot of things and I really enjoyed his company. I hope he accomplishes everything that he wants. I wish him the best.
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