Good morning everyone. I woke up early today, which is good.
I have just scheduled an appointment with a psychologist. My current psychologist isn’t helping me and she isn’t validating me, either. She doesn’t take my calls during the week, which she should do, according to Marsha Linehan (the creator of DBT). She isn’t helping me, she seems very inexperienced with this type of therapy. When she stopped calling, I felt abandoned. I felt invalidated and hurt. But I started rationalizing it. She’s just my therapist, the bond we had was fake and she clearly doesn’t care so why would I?
I’m going to start therapy with a new therapist, which isn’t very good. I hate starting therapy, you have to tell your story again and it’s just frustrating. I’m doing it anyway, I need therapy. I hope I like her.
It’s not DBT but my psychiatrist said I would benefit from any type of psychotherapy. I’m going to buy DBT self-help books, maybe they can help me.
I feel a bit scared because I’m so convinced that DBT would help me a lot and I’m going to have a “normal” psychotherapist. At least my new therapist has experience with addiction, that gives me hope.
It’s always good to get to exchange ideas with someone new. To see other points of view so, even if I’m scared, I’m excited as well.
I hope it goes well. If it doesn’t, I’ll deal with it.