I’ve been going out every day in the last three days. It’s getting easier. I’m starting to be less nervous about going out. It has to become a regular part of life. I don’t have to do this on my own. I have my psychiatrist and therapist. My family, my boyfriend, and my friends. I feel supported and that’s a good feeling.
I still have some delusions that bother me from time to time. Irrational fears combined with rational fears is a lot of fear for one person. No wonder I’m paralyzed. But I won’t be for much longer, that’s what I feel. It’ getting unbearable, I’m wasting my life. I’m starting to get bored of just staying at home and now I have plans. I have goals and none of them will be achieved if I just stay at home.
It has been so hard to write. I wrote a post on Friday, continued on Saturday. Wasn’t happy with the result so I started writing this new post. I hate to be inactive on WordPress but sometimes I suppose I will need to be. I guess I feel empty at times and that prevents me from writing. Also, if I don’t do much, I won’t have much to talk about. That is how it works.
My blog can be a motivation for me to get out and do things. I don’t want it to wither and die.
I have been forgetting to post about the music I’ve been listening to. I will post my recommendations for this week today.
I hope you are all okay.