Today ( how to deal with unpleasant emotions)

Well, I had a nice post but something derailed my day. I had to rest, listen to music and I started doing a course on Skillshare that is called The Amazing Routine. It was very enlightening and inspiring. I had to do a blueprint for my daily routine. I’m going to get out of my comfort zone and do things that I’m not used to. It sounds like the method may help me overcome some obstacles, set and achieve goals, change habits. I’m excited and I hope I can keep it up. It has to be something that captivates me, like writing or drawing. It’s enjoyable to do and the exercises are not too hard. The hardest part is doing it every day for months.

The blueprint for my amazing routine took me about an hour to do and I feel content with putting the effort to do something for self-improvement. I will be updating you on how it goes. Also because I need to be held accountable. That helps me stick to things.

So here’s my tip for today: if something unpleasant happens and you have free time, do a guided meditation, listen to soothing music, meditate without music, nap. Do whatever feels better. After you calm down, you may still feel sad and frustrated. Do a course, something that you’re passionate about. Go on Reddit and go in those interesting rabbit holes. Don’t passively scroll Facebook. You may see stuff you don’t like. Take some time to write,to watch a movie. Keep your mind occupied. Doing constructive things is the best, they give you the best feeling because they can be challenging and the reward and sense of pride in your work is amazing. Try not to ruminate on thoughts and find interesting projects or ideas to develop.

I’m going to meditate and sleep now. I’ve been going to sleep around 1 am. It feels good to wake up early. I’ll set my alarm tonight. I need to wake up at the same time every day. I want to see if it’s beneficial to my mental health.

I wish you all a good day or night. Hugs

Today

Aah! I just took a shower and wore a clean pajama. It’s one of the best feelings in life, imo.

I’m listening to an audiobook on Librivox and drawing. I feel relaxed and content.

I did my workout before the shower and will repeat it two more times today. Adding one or two exercises to the routine would be great, as I’ve been doing the same 4 exercises since last week. Exercising is a good way to cultivate discipline and I need it a lot. I mean, everyone does. It’s a very crucial skill for having a balanced life.

It feels great to stick to my workout program and not give up after two days, like I did so many times. I actually like working out now, for some reason, which is very good.

I’m going to continue drawing and listening to music. I’ve been working on an article about self-care but it has been sitting on my word processor for about two weeks. My computer has been off this whole time, I don’t feel like using it. It’s very weird. Hopefully I won’t feel this way for much longer. I really need to use my computer.

I hope you are okay.

Today

Still going outside, still trying. My body feels lighter and my legs feel stronger. I enjoy being outside.

I like going to different shops to look around, maybe even buy something. I bought things for myself today. A cheap hair mask and tobacco supplies. I also had two coffees while I was out and a pastry made of a smoked delicacy.

There weren’t a lot of people in the streets. Which is a good thing. I visitedy esthetician in her new shop. She is busy in the next two days but she will be available soon. I need to do my eyebrows, that’s always my biggest problem. I think I’m going to do my nails as well, in a nice spring color. Just to look a little more polished. What color should I pick?

I did the first part of my core work out. I worked on my legs and abdomen. There are still some exercises to go and I will do them in a few minutes.

There’s a huge difference between having a completely sedentary love life and a more active life, in which you walk and work out. I feel better. I don’t feel as sad or melancholic. My thoughts are peaceful. My body is heavy from the exercise but I’m at peace. Tonight, I’ll sleep like a baby.

I’ve lost several pounds (I’ll update you when I know exactly how many) and I’m motivated to work out more and continue on a diet. The older you get, the harder it is to lose the weight. I don’t want to have health problems due to being heavier. I want to have a slender figure for a few reasons and aesthetics is one of them. I’m attracted to slender and well-built men. Those men normally want women who are lighter than me. I like how I look when I’m lighter and men like me more,too. Not that it matters now, I’m completely celibate. I have no wish to engage with men I don’t know.

Just a quiet night, no big problems, the trash truck is outside, some cars pass by. I have everything I need and more. What else can I ask for? Being single is so good. Honestly, I didn’t think I would like it as much as I do. I went on an adventure. I discovered that going alone isn’t so bad. Sometimes it’s better to be alone. Though I’m never really alone: there’s always mom or dad, maybe a friend or my ex. I’m in an isolated room, away from everyone but I feel their presence. When my dad had pneumonia, I felt the emptiness of the house. In the beginning, it was so unsettling. Then I got used to it but this “alone time” with people in the house is much more comfortable to me. Maybe if they went on holiday to somewhere, I would like being here alone. That would be a completely different situation.

I digress. A lot. But I guess my thoughts are like that. Sometimes they’re all over the place. They run wild.

I’m going to draw and review an opinion article I recently wrote to see if I can post it. I love you all. You are amazing. ❤️